May 5, 2014

• A new week…

  I just got LilE to start getting out and being social only to find that a few of the activities he wanted to do are no longer going to be going on or at least not till school starts again. So this summer when kids need to be active there is nothing much to do. I can’t find something he wants to do that isn’t stupid expensive. I can’t find a way to keep his body in motion so he doesn’t have the time to be a pain in the butt.

  This is the first week of not having anything to do outside of his school work … something to do with kids his age and something he likes.

  In other news, I am seeking to find what I want to be when I grow up. How does one find what they want to do. I have tried loads of jobs and loads of just doings, I have a bazillion things that go through my head. Idea after idea but my follow through is well…..it sucks. Not because I am lazy or such…it is mostly because I don’t want to be the person that does the stuff I am just the idea sort of person….to some extent I like having all these ideas, I just want to be able to tell them to someone  and then watch as they are executed. But to do so would take loads of money and I am poor as a church mouse…..Who came up with that saying….and why would a church mouse be poor?

  WahE is having the same problem that LilE is having…all he is involved with outside of the house is shutting down till school starts back in Late Aug. or early Sept. The only difference is…WahE is easily entertained he loves to help others. So he is willing to help all the time. This keeps him busy. He helps with cleaning, organizing, fighting video game monsters, and well anything all the time.

  LilE keeps trying to isolate himself. He is now trying to cut everything out of his life his father, his brothers and now me. He blames us all for his problems, attitude and anything he doesn’t like. He is miserable with himself but he is so full of pain he is like a mad or starving dog, he is trying to bite the hand that feeds him and cares for him. SIGH

   

  In other news I am truly happy or at least contented with life. I most of the days my kids are amazing. The one thing about LilE that is brilliant, he loves to open doors for well everyone but especially women. He has been drawing again.  This time he is drawing cartoons for friends and such. These are in the Anime style. He has been drawing cartoons for girls with them in them. He loves doing this but the girls well they are not sure how to take this. They think he is trying to be something more with them. HE is just trying to be funny and nice.

   

  • 11:25 pm
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