• I feel so tired today.
• I want to run off and play hooky from life
• I want to hang out with friends and have fun
• I want to drive to Texas, grab my MidEGGO and bring him home.
• LilE is having a difficult day.
• WahE is in trouble
• E had the car till I was not able to leave the house
• HOW are all of you?

A week and a few days ago, LilE had a few problems with AK. These problems were to the point he was avoiding going anywhere he thought AK would be. I allowed him a few days to adjust to his own thoughts and such. After giving him his space I was able to talk with him about expectations, reality and standing ones ground so as not to be walked over, or treated in such a way that he feels he has no options.

On Sunday, I took him around some of the kids he would see at the Mix and possibly interact with and I also knew that AK wouldn’t be there.

LilE went, spent time with a few other kids and enjoyed himself. He spent a few other times with some other kids because part of his putting up with AK is because he feels like he has no other friends and he starts feeling bad about the things AK bags on him for.

I also talked with one of the adults that keeps an eye on the kids at The Mix and asked for just a few extra eyes on LilE when AK is around and just not look but to take in what he sees of the interaction.

FF to Wed night. The Mix night.

LilE made a point to run ahead of me and get into The Mix so I didn’t check him in. I went off and did my thing.

When I got back, LilE was nowhere to be found but I did talke with the adult I had talked with before. He commented that he saw LilE pick up his things up and move a few tables away from AK. This happened several times.

LilE finally came out and we drove home. I left him alone till he wanted to talk… when he talked he did.

He said he got in early, picked the table he wanted to hang out with his friends at. Slowly the other kids came in, AK was the last of his friends.

The other kids came hung out and went of to do other things and then would come back. AK showed up when LilE and 2 other kids were talking. AK told those kids to get lost they were in HIS spot. So those kids including LilE got up and moved a few tables away.

AK sat surprised for a little bit and then moved over to the other table when the other kids went off to do other things.

LilE stayed and chatted with AK till he started being rude so LilE got up and moved back to the first table.

AK followed and asked him why he got up….

LilE responded, “I am giving up drama queens for lent!”

AK  seemed stunned then asked why LilE said that.

LilE explained that AK’s behavior was inappropriate. Pulling his hair (AK pulling LilE’s hair) was inappropriate and not fun.

AK said his sisters do it to him all the time and he found it playful.

LilE then said he didn’t want to be called an idiot or stupid anymore and wasn’t going to put up with is.

AK said he was just being silly and not to get so bent out of shape over that.

LilE brought up several other things that AK did which he “explained away” .

By the end of the night LilE was willing to allow AK to sit around him but he would move when AK would pull other “stunts” and LilE spend time with the other kids he is  becoming friends with. AK was more than asked to do things with them but refused.

When LilE was done telling me about his night I asked him if he accepted the explanations. He said while he doesn’t believe what AK said, but he was not wanting  to exclude anyone. He wants to still be friend with AK because they are on the same level and like somethings the other kids don’t like but he wants to have new friends so that AK knows he doesn’t have to put up with crap from him.

My LilEGGO gave up Drama Queens for Lent.

Time just seems to get away from me. This year is almost worse than last year and I don’t like it flying as fast as it does.

I have recently, two days ago, gotten a new tablet with a key pad that just makes me love being able to write again. As a matter of fact  I have been filled with loads of ideas to write about.

Last night I wrote out 2 amazing stories that were pure gold, then I woke up and realized it was a dream. The stories were still somewhat in my head but by the time I got out my stuff to write with….they had flitted out of my silly head.

Today, I have been trying to write a few things. It was interesting I was on my way to the store and some briliant things to write popped into my head. By the time I got parked and my pen and paper out to jot down the ideas…they too were gone. None of that goes to make me a happy camper. I want to get back into writing again.

I found a few of my short stories recently and have started the process of polishing them up a bit to see if they could be in a short story book or something.

I also found the poem of my father’s that I was starting to illustrate and I need to get working on that as well.

So I have a lot of things I am wanting to do, sadly being a parent and making sure they do what they need to, like eat, wash, clean, school work and all those other mundane things take priority.

In other news….

• BigEGGO has once again been praised for his outstanding work at his job.
• MidE has a job and a girlfriend so he calls rarely
• LilE has dropped his friendship with AK due to AK getting LilE kicked out of a few of the online places I let him go. AK did so because LilE disagreed with him. Now he says he is going to try and make friends with other kids there (at the Mix= The mix is….a church has an area that they open for kids from the area to go and play games, do sports and other such things where they don’t have their parents around but are still out of trouble and have adults that are supervising them) and try to get along with them so he has other friends that are not such jerks.
• WahE is still doing well. I am still trying to figure out how to channel his personality into a way to not bother his father and brothers. HE is one of those people that seems to need to be helping others but sadly others take it as him being a buttinski and they get mad at him for it.

And the last news….

I am starting up a women’s get together sort of thing. It started out that one of the women that I did the inner healing thing with, wanted to spend some time without kids and not at work, so I suggested that we get together and maybe do a book to continue or healing journey. She agreed and liked the book I suggested. Last night she called me and informed me that she as 3 other people that are going to meet with us and do the book with us, and do I mind if I make sure we focus on it and do the work and maybe prepare a bit of something so I am leading it???

I agreed. I am ok with it….just going to take a bit of getting used to the idea. Funny thing is I just went to a leadership workshop a week prior and was wondering if I was cut out to be any kind of leader or what I should do. I went because it was a workshop on how we can effect change in our little environments for the better and such. At the end I didn’t think I had much to do to make my realm better other than striving a bit harder to be a better parent. So I guess this little meeting is going to be a step and I can help these women to strive to better themselves a bit hopefully.

We will see.