I signed up for redditgifts and this is what I received today

And now I wish I could call it back so they can't read it ever. Face/Palm.

I seem to be doing that a lot more than I need to recently.

Three nights ago I changed my get to sleep pattern. Usually I have the tv on in the background with something that I have watched a thousand times it helps to not worry about the mundane. I focus on what is playing abd I end up dropping off to sleep. This night I decieded to play a bunch of music I haven't heard or haven't heard for  years. I made a youtube play list and  started to go to sleep. As I was about to fall asleep and the song playing brought up a dream, I had to write it down. So I rolled over and grabbed a piece of paper and wrote...and wrote and wrote 2 full pages in the light of my tablet. I then folded up the papaer in a triangel and put it in my pocket. I then rolled back over and dropped off to sleep.

In the morning I woke, changed into what I was going to wear for the day, ran out and got MidE, drove to eat brunch and came home. Upon arrival at the house I noticed that the paper wasn't in my pocket. I started searching around the area where I sleep, in the cushions on the couch, everywhere. I went out and searched the car, my purse, and everywhere I had been. It wasn't till I was getting ready to start cooking in the oven at 1 am (yes I cooked a pork carniats at 1 am in the oven) that I remembered I had changed bottoms.

I went over to the said bottoms and there it was, in the pocket. D'oh (face/palm). At this point I figured that I needed to put it somewhere and not ONLY somewhere, I needed to put it somewhere I would REMEMBER and it wasn't out in the open for E or one of the boys to pick up and read what I wrote. I really don't remember what I wrote in my half sleep but I have the feeling that if it was found by the wrong Eyes they would read into it something that isn't there. SOOOOOO....I found such a place. I remember I would be able to wake up and it would be right there. There would be no reason to not put it there. I finished cooking my pork carnitas at 530 am.

I went to bed. Slept. Woke up and the first thing I thought was, "Now to go and read what I wrote as I don't remember a thing about it."

The problem......are you ready for this?...... I can't remember where I put it.

Since I woke up yesterday and wanted to read it I have cleared out my entire area looking for it. I know it is out of sight of where everyone gets into stuff but I have even looked there.

I. CAN'T.FIND.MY.TRIANGULAR.FOLDED.PAPER.

IT.IS.NOWHERE.

NO ONE. IN. THE.HOUSE. HAS. ANY.CLUE. WHAT. I. AM. TALKING. ABOUT.

It has been 36 hours since I placed it whereever I placed it and it is still not to be found.

So if you find my papers, folded in a triangle and the writing is somewhat incoherent but about lost loves (that Is all I can remember about it) then please send it to me...

Midnight Writer

1234 Dumbass Lane.

Clueless, Br. (Brain) 99999

Thank you 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~UPDATE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The paper has been found. I don't remember writing what was written. I am glad I was the one to find and read it and no one else. It is quite personal. This is why I don't write things anymore....as soon as I found the paper E tried taking it away from me so he could see what I write in the middle of the night. That would have been a disaster. Him reading my personal writings is why I no longer write on paper at any time. Triangle paper just proves this over again. I have writen it into my tablet and burned the paper. I posted it private to my xanga so it is there for when I need to reread it.

The Dr told LilE that the toe would be saved
Whoever let the blood out without removal of the nail did right. I that person hadn't then they would have had to release the pressure by lifting yhe nail. He also had no break. No antibiotics unless it gets infected.

LilE told her what I did and Dr said I did the rigt thing and saved him from worse pain.

The kids have been taking turns out being motivated to do school work. All except MidE he is plodding along at his ssssslllllllooooooooowwwwwwwwwww pace. But with that said, he is at a 107% in his classes and testing. He so far hasn't gotten a lower score that a 98. His highest has been a 110 and several in the 105, 106's. He has passed his photography class and is on to algerbra 2. Next he is starting in a week or 2 is chemistry and Government, he will be studying out of the book I gave him 3 years ago for his government class so he will ace it as well. We have often talked about it and he remembers it all.

My boys mixed up tuna a few days ago. I have a rule when emptying out a tuna can it must be washed out and then put in the trash. But the trash has been taken out 3 times since they opened it and the house still smells like tuna. Not just tuna but old tuna. We can't figure out where the smell is coming from. I have cleaned out the emptied trash can a few times with soap and hot water. I have cleaned all the dishes and counters and floor. I have cleaned out the livingroom (looking for my triangle paper) but the smell persists. I even cleaned out the house with either vinegar (for tiled floors) or baking soda (sprinkled on the rugs and vacuumed and in the washing machines with all house towels). I Don't like the smell of tuna old or new.

Yesterday LilE got a splinter. He whined and whined till I pulled the sucker out of his foot. To be able to see his foot properly as this house doesn't have ceiling lights and the lamps aren't higher than a 70 watt bulb, I had to get out the desk lamp with the magnifying glass built in. The bottom is removable and the top swivles and bends. I popped out the splinter and told him to clean up. As he was putting away the lamp w/ magnifier the bottom fell off and aquashed his toe. The bigh one now it is looking like the toe nail needs removing. So when E gets home from work. I am going to take LilE to the Dr and see if they can provide some relief.

How is your week going?

Earlier than I wanted this a.m. So as to have the car. I was just dozing off at 3 am when E came in telling me he was going to work early. Off we went to get him to work. I was back by 4 and in my sleeping area by 4. I dozed off and the next thing I knew WahE was waking me a few minutes before my alarm was to go off.

I dozed off for a few more minutes and finaly up at 8. The three "S's" done I jumped into the car to take care of my DMV appointment. Got there just a few minutes before my appointment and proceded to drive around for 9 trying to find parking. i finally parked across the street in the shopping centre and ran over. After a few minutes in line to notify themI was there, I sat down to wait...f056.

As I was sitting there, a kid (maybe in his late teens early 20's) was getting texts and emails with his notification tones from Mario Bros. Noting to myself how cool that was I pulled out my phone to check email and such.

One of them had a video parody of gangnam style and it started blaring. Immediately muting the sound, I heard a guffaw from the 20ish guy behind me. i turned and halfasses appologized to all.
20ish guy commented that EVERYONE is watching that since VMA's.
I responded and said it was a My Little Pony Parody.
20ish siad, "Oh, cool, I didn't know there was one!"
As I finished watching I held it up high enoug so he could see. I could see him bronying out over it. I wrote down the title so he could watch it later, handed it back to him must as my # was called.

Off to get my renewal.

Two ladies were siting kind of slumped, bored expressions on their faces and not in any way smiling. I handed my papers to the lady getting ready to help me and smiled.
Without glancing up, she asked me toread line mumble mumble.
This ladies voice fell in her lap. I couldn't hear whar she said. She repeated A1. In reading the line, my dyslexia reared it's ugly head, and I read the line wrong, out of order, she commented that I had.
Smiling and jokingly I commented that my eyesigtnwas fine it is just my hearing and dyslexia.
The lady next to her and she both perked up, smiled at me and said it is the mothers hearing, when it isn't our kids needing something selective hearing occurs.
After that the testing was more fun, she called out the lines to read of as if she was calling for bingo. And at the last one when she said I readmit rigt, I called out"Bingo", and smiled. They both laughed, handed me the papers I needed for next stage and wishe me a good day.

Smiling, I walked over to get the new photo taken. There were a few people in front of me and they breezes through.....thumb here, beep....stand behind the line and look here, click....good done.

Then they came to me, thumb here....tick tock...tick tock....looks around....tick tock....finally that sound....beep. Step behind the line and look here and click......tick tock.....fidgets......sigh....fidgets more....
I asked, "Am I invisible? Or did it just pick up my makeup?"
He looked up, smiled and offered to let me see. The photo wasn't too bad so I told him that was as good as it was going to get. He smiled said ok and I was free.

The rest of the day was me getting food from my favorite pub, buying some things I needed for food stuffs and then home to laze around until I had to pick up E.

Got E, went shopping for stuffs and such and back home...now kids are off to bed and and I have go get food stuffs for tomorrow.

The weeks seem to fly by with little to show for what I do. I like to see a result, no results or work to show for all this time. Reading to each kid at night and every night I guess there is progress in the books=small results to show . Sweeping and washing dishes and laundry in a few seconds with the first breeze dust scatters across the floor, dishes are used in seconds for snacks or just things they take out to eat and forget to bring back till the kitchen is clean, and spills on kids clothing=no results to show. My writing on a daily basis has been trying to write out the kids school work=little results.

Good things in life.

• LilE is pumping out his school work at a fast pace and doing so well. I hope that he keeps it up. He is slightly struggling with math but not a lot.
• WahE is funny (when i am not frustrated with his being a butt-in-ski) he tells funny jokes and makes them up himself. One of these days I will write them down when he tells them so as not to loose what they should be.
• MidE is doing so well with his school work (when he applies himself) and is enjoying what he is doing.
• BigE has been keeping to himself. I will leave it that way. I know he is miserable but the good is he is not taking it out on me.
• As for me, I am working at trying to get the school work written out for this year. I have been able to keep up on laundry and it isn't spilling out of the hamper. I have been able to keep up with dishes and they aren't piling up in the sink. I sweep at least 3 times a day.

I was wanting to do some really good story writing and was doing some on the computer in the middle of the night, only to find out that my saved files have been discarded and are not here anymore. I lost about 6 or 7 weeks of daily writing 5 pages gone. It is so hard to write them down again.

One story I lost is the one I made for when I drive with the kids.....

I had it written out and edited to the best of its incarnation....gone. Now each time I write it out it just doesn't want to be written again...or yet.

I had about a year of my life, my most traumatic part of my life written out and it is gone. I don't know if I am strong enough to write it out again and so soon. It was hard to write.

My first attempt at challah...did one with cinnamon and sugar in the braid....it was super yummy. Next time a sour dough.

Why were there no mental problems in early America?

Because there were Nomad people there.